Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Once Upon A Time: The Video
"Finding Angela Shelton" - Day Eighteen...
You might have noticed there's no blog entry for yesterday. That's because yesterday I was suffering from a migraine that was so bad I almost had to go to the hospital for treatment. I'm recuperating today. Today I feel as though I've been hit by a Mack truck. I don't feel like talking to anybody. My head still hurts and I feel like being lazy. It's taking everything I've got in me to stay out of bed. But as lazy and icky as I feel, I still want to keep moving forward on my journey, so I opened my email this morning to find out what day 18 had in store for me.
Day 18's task was another one that really challenged me: Share your light. I was instructed to tell my story to someone new, someone I haven't told it to before. Lucky for me, Angela gave me a ticket to do this however I wanted to do it. She wrote, "If you do not feel up to speaking, you can be creative about how you tell." I definitely didn't feel like speaking, so I tried to think of a way I could tell my story, and I came up with the idea to make a video to share on YouTube. I took the story of my rape and turned it into this:
As soon as I'm finished with this blog, I'll be uploading my video to my YouTube account. Many people who know me "in real life" and online don't know my story yet, so it's pretty much a given that someone new will see this when I post it. I don't know what kind of reaction it's going to get, and to be honest with you it really doesn't matter. What matters is that I've found another way to tell my story... another way to speak out... another way to purge.
What matters is that I am continuing this journey and I'm giving myself the chance to explore new outlets along the way. Since I started this journey, I've tried lots of new things. I've written, I've painted, I've screamed, I've played, I've moved, and I've been still. I've learned to think out of the box and I've learned never to dismiss the opportunity to try something different. I've learned so much that it's difficult to put into words how lovely this whole thing has been.
Have you been taking the journey with me? Perhaps just following along? I'd love to know what you've learned along the way... Enjoy the next few days. I'll be back with day nineteen as soon as our Christmas festivities have come to an end.
As we inch a little closer to 2010, I'm eager to see what the future holds, because I know the past is the past... and the present is definitely the best "present" I could have given myself this year.