It's Time

My life is so full and worth living outside of the blog world that I've come to the not so difficult decision that

this

is

it.

It's time for me to say goodbye to this blog and to live the beautiful life I have worked so hard to build. I'll be leaving all my posts as they are in the hopes that they will find their way to those who need them.

Thank you to all my readers, supporters, and encouragers. You have made this journey the most rewarding period of my life and there is no way I could ever adequately express what you all mean to me.

This is the happiest goodbye I've ever said, and I can't wait to see what God's got in store for me now.

May you be blessed - and inspired to PASS IT ON!

Tech Break!

I'm taking a bit of a break from technology.

I want some time away from the computer.

I'm actually going to let the battery on my laptop die and refuse to recharge it for the next several days.

See you when I'm ready to come out of my shell.

(All is well, I just want a break from the noise for a few days.)

Until next time, may you be blessed - and inspired to pass it on!

Happy Sick Day!

The past couple of weeks here at home have been full of illness and busy-ness and craziness... and FUN!

My healing journey has brought me so far from where I was just a few short years ago. I'm now able to have fun in the midst of sickness.

What?

I've found absolute JOY in spending sick days on the couch with my family. There was a full week this month when we were all too sick to move, so we just cuddled and watched movies and read books and let the dishes pile up to the ceiling. And you know what? Some of those dishes are still there on the counter, waiting to be washed with yellow Joy. I remember the last time things got this bad. I ended up blogging about it back then too.

Today, my nine-year-old is home sick with an ear infection. No school for him. Just antibiotics and lots of rest. He and I don't get too much one-on-one time these days because he's usually too busy being an active kid while I'm busy trying to catch up with him (and his little brother!), so we're both actually happy about sitting here at the coffee table working together. He's doing make-up work from school and I'm blogging. When we're ready for a break, Ghostbusters 1 and 2 are waiting by the DVD player. Good times all around. Time together. That's what counts.

Those dishes? The ones that have been sitting there for over a week? They've been rinsed and stacked and they can wait. They're inanimate objects taking up space on my counter. Whoop-de-doo. My son? The one who's next to me right here, right now? He's growing more and more each day... and I won't always have the chance to bond with him like this, in stillness and contentment. In this moment I have an opportunity to connect with him. That connection can't wait.

How is your day? Your week? Are you giving up something priceless for something temporary? I used to do that almost every single day. I thought cleaning constantly was more important than creating bonds with my children. I gave up a lot of good memories in order to be able to say "all my dishes are clean." It's difficult to find the joy when you're busy keeping up with the Joneses. Keep up with yourself, your family, your joy. Do your personal best. Be the best family member you can be. Be your own version of joyful. You won't be sorry.

Until next time, may you be blessed - and inspired to pass it on!

What a Difference a Break Makes!

I realize it's been quite some time since I've visited you here in blog-land with an update, and I'm happy to report that once again we have regular Internet access here at home so I can get back to sharing my thoughts and getting great feedback from my readers. I'm so excited to be back!

Over the last few months, I've had plenty of time on my hands. I read about 50 books - no exaggeration there. I spent more time with friends. I learned to bake my own bread. I played more. I had a blast! And with no Internet and no cable, I spent a lot of time reorganizing my priorities. (I'm starting to realize that this is something I need to do every now and then just to keep things in my life in check.) I put my health on the forefront when I went for my annual eye exam in November and was told I had some inflammation behind my left eye. According to the eye doctor, about one third of people who experience this type of inflammation go on to develop Multiple Sclerosis at some point. Based on an assessment of my current health condition and some strange tingling sensations I'd been feeling in my left side (and some symptoms I kept secret from a lot of people for a long time - yikes!) I was urged by that eye doctor to get some tests done. I got on the ball and made appointments to have a series of MRIs. Long story short, I have been told to see a neurologist. It's MS.

So now I move on to getting healthy, healthy, healthy and fighting this thing one day at a time. Because I am a woman of faith - and because I have amazing friends who are supporting me every step of the way - making the lifestyle changes I need to make has been as easy as can be. I plan to live a long and healthy life. I believe that attitude is half the battle. I learned this while my father was battling non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. My dad was a great example of how full a life can be even with a potentially fatal disease. He fought, he prayed, he moved more, he ate healthier, he spent more time with us because he realized how precious life is...

I am choosing to see this diagnosis as a gift. It has given me the fire under my behind that I've needed to get myself back into a routine of eating healthy and getting a good amount of exercise. I've lost 15 pounds since Christmas and I have a lot more to lose. Now I have some SERIOUS motivation to drop this weight for good, deal with the emotional reasons I've carried it around for so long, and be healthy. I may actually live longer because of MS. I have changed habits that had the potential to kill me on their own! So it took MS to get me moving... so what. Today I feel great. One day at a time. I can do this.

My sister bought this shirt for me a while back. I've just about worn it out over the last few months. Its message reminds me that with God on my side, all things are possible!

What have you been doing for the last few months? Have you seen any yellow joy? Have you been having a rough time? I'd love to hear from you. Fill me in!

Despite all of the things I've been through over the last few months, I feel great. I'll be back into the blogging groove soon. In the mean time, if you know of any good vegetarian or semi-vegetarian recipes or websites, I'd be so grateful if you'd share those with me. I've developed my own high-fiber/low-fat eating plan that I really enjoy but I'd love to add some new recipes to the mix.

Until next time, may you be blessed - and inspired to pass it on!

Oops! No Internet!

#1 - This is an awesome song with a wonderful message. (Thanks to Carl Craft for sharing it with me!)



#2 - I just wanted to post a quick note to let those of you who are wondering know... I plan to come back as soon as I'm able. I haven't had Internet access at home for the last couple of months and do not have the time nor the resources to devote to blogging at the public library. Ha! I hope and pray that you all had a wonderful holiday season and that all is well in your neck of the woods.

God bless you, and until I get back (probably sometime in February or March)... May you be blessed - and inspired to pass it on!

Setting Boundaries in Social Networking - My Facebook Fast

My sister and I have recently established our own girly ritual. Every week we drop everything we're doing and meet up for coffee. We sit for hours and just chat. It keeps us connected. I love it. A few weeks ago she brought me a set of Joyce Meyer CDs entitled "The Safety Zone: Establishing Boundaries that De-Stress Your Life" - YAY! Just my cup of tea... or organically grown coffee in this case, because that's what my sister and I sip during our chats. This morning I finally got around to listening to the discs and it dawned on me how seriously out of balance my life has been lately.

I've blogged before about setting healthy boundaries in my life and getting my priorities straight. The two go hand-in-hand for me. Well, it's time for me to set some boundaries again. I've been working like a crazy person, trying to juggle my social networking time with my blogging time with my God time with my family time with my friends time with my "me" time. Notice the order of those priorities? Yeah. Me too. SERIOUSLY out of order.

Something happened in October. My life went bonkers. My oldest son joined Scouting. My youngest son's neurological disorder started causing him some problems. My driver's license expired and we didn't have the money for renewal so I had to schedule everything around my poor husband's work hours and he had to do all of the errand-running. My kids both suddenly hit a growth spurt and outgrew their clothes so I was scrambling to try to make sure they had enough to get them through the month. Halloween drove me insane because this year's trick-or-treat was on my tenth wedding anniversary and we were scheduled to attend a fall Boy Scout camp that weekend. Some personal things happened in my extended family and some boundaries needed to be set but I just didn't do it. I tried to be Super-Woman. HELLO? Did I not learn ANYTHING over the last year of my journey? The joy's hard to find when you won't slow down enough to see it. Practice what you preach, Meggs!

Now, I have an immense network of people I consider friends - yes, actual friends - whom I've met online and communicate with solely through Facebook. But the truth is, I've allowed Facebook to become a time-sucking vampire in my daily life. If I'd have had the good sense to just drop my laptop for a break every now and then when all of this over-scheduling and drama-dodging started, I'd have never gotten burned out to the point that I had to slam on the brakes and totally walk away from Facebook. But nooooo. I had ZERO established boundaries on Facebook. I told everybody everything, and it was completely unnecessary. Here's the thing... I'm pretty sure that while some of my pals find it entertaining to know what I had for supper, who I got to visit with today, where I went shopping this morning or what I plan to do for date night, they're not going to die without that information. I have no idea how in the world I got so cocky that I believed the whole Facebook world would fall apart if I decided to leave it behind for a while. How self-centered and ridiculous is that? I mean, really! My Facebook friends were fine before they met me, and they'll be fine if I decide to take a break every now and then. My world does not need to revolve around disclosing every single detail of my daily life on a social networking site.

As Joyce Meyer says, it's time for me to let go of culturally imposed pressure and stress. She has a great point. These days in America it is almost fashionable to be stressed out. Well, I've never really been a 'fashionable' girl, so I'm ready to go against the grain here and tell you that I've had enough. I am not Super-Woman. I am absolutely unashamed to tell you that. As a matter of fact, I'm kind of proud of myself for being able to drop the "keeping up with the Facebookers" mentality. I am not the queen of Facebook. I'm sure my friends don't need - or WANT - to know every move I make.

Have you ever felt pressured to be on Facebook or Twitter or MySpace just because you felt it was 'expected' of you? Is your News Feed a constant contest between you and your friends to see who's got the most drama, the most difficult job, the most loaded schedule, the cutest kids, etc? I'm just wondering if I'm the only one who's allowed social networking to suck the life out of me? I'd love to know your take on social media and where it sits on your priority list.

I have no idea how long my Facebook 'fast' will last. I'm just gonna go with the flow. Thanks to Networked Blogs, new blog posts will automatically show up on my Wall so my friends and followers will still know when something new comes along. So...I'm gonna go do something productive for now... and I will not be updating my Facebook status to tell you what it is. Ha!.

Until next time... may you be blessed - and inspired to pass it on!

I'm Still Alive (& I'm Havin' a Virtual Block Party!)

I just want to let you all know that I'm still alive, I intend to continue this blog, and I am overwhelmed to the point of exhaustion with life events that require the majority of my attention most days. I am, however, practicing what I preach (JOY, JOY, JOY) which is the reason I haven't been blogging recently. My mother has had three knee surgeries since October, my kids are now out of school, and there's a myriad of other things that have kept my blog on the back burner for some time now. Blogging is a priority, but my family's well-being will always be way nearer the top of the list than pouring my heart out in a blog. I have managed to keep a very healthy balance regardless of the stress/drama that's been knocking at my door. I believe with all of my being that had it not been for the 30-Day Healing Journey I would have recently been committed to a mental health facility for evaluation and medication. Thanks again, Angela Shelton. I would say I owe you one, but we both know that you can't put a price on this balance and pretty much perpetual state of joy that I've achieved.

Is it just me, or is summer like a magic season? In my "real-world" community, more people get out of their houses during the summer months. They play in the park, they exercise, they organize community events, they get creative, they play with their kids, they smile more often. They blow bubbles, they play in the sprinklers, they walk their neighborhoods with their heads held high and their water bottles clutched tightly in their healthy little hands. They sport their shades and shed their inhibitions and become these awesome super-people who seem to be in hiding during other seasons. Summer is definitely super in my little world, and June and July are the busiest months of the year for my family. We join together in June and July. We celebrate life. We work our butts off to be TOGETHER.

In the spirit of togetherness - and in an effort to deliver some great joyful and inspiring content during my "off-time" - I'm reaching out to members of what I call my own personal "survivor" community. I've asked several friends to be guest bloggers during the months of June and July. I want to bring people together to share their passion for life. I want them to showcase their work and their talents and to share with us the WHY of what they do to further their cause. I'm still not sure how many guest blogs I'll end up with here. This is sort of an ongoing project. If you'd like to participate please let me know. Just think of it as an online block (read:blog) party... a neighborhood meet-and-greet networking spectacular. A parade of purpose that begins on my own personal virtual Main Street. Let's Join together in June and July and share our JOY.

See you soon!

Happy Angela Shelton Day!

I've been away for a while. Life's been at me again but I feel really good about where things are headed regardless of the stressful situations around me. The ultimate compliment to me, as someone who's trudging through therapy and healing, is when someone else tells me they notice a difference in my life. I got that ultimate compliment last week. My big brother told me he noticed I'm not a worrier anymore. How cool is that? (If you only knew how much I worried before! OH if you only knew!) But I digress...



April 29th is Angela Shelton Day in Asheville, North Carolina, USA (Angela's hometown).

After Asheville's mayor saw Angela's film, he named April 29th "Angela Shelton Day" in honor of all abuse survivors. You may see the film - Searching for Angela Shelton - for free here: http://www.hulu.com/watch/142102/searching-for-angela-shelton

I am a member of Angela's Army of Angels. You can learn more about the Army of Angels by visiting http://www.armyofangels.net

This week the Army of Angels and survivors around the world have been "tweeting" stories of abuse victims and survivors on Twitter. The purpose of this "Angels All A-Twitter" campaign is to promote healing, awareness and joy. If you'd like to follow me as I tweet about speaking out and sharing joy and healing, you may do so by visiting my Twitter profile at http://www.Twitter.com/MzMeggs

The members of The Army of Angels speak out in order to continue the movement of healing and joy that Angela Shelton inspired with her documentary. Angels know that sharing our stories is a great way to promote healing and a way to help other victims and survivors know they are not alone. The Army of Angels is full of women - and men too! - who are fully committed to sharing the hope and joy we've found on our healing journies. The three people who've changed my life in the most profound ways are Jesus, Angela, and Mackenzie Phillips. If you follow my blog, you already know why I cite these three as my inspirations.

For more information about "Angels All A-Twitter" click here.

See you soon with another new blog, but until then, happy healing - and HAPPY ANGELA SHELTON DAY!

Handling Myself with Care

I'm just writing a quick entry today to let all of my wonderful, faithful readers know that the time has come - yet again - for me to take a little break. Some things have been happening around me that have been very difficult for me to understand, and even though I am so close to the end of this journey, I need to take a few days off to process what's happening.

I have struggled for many years with control issues. I am working very hard to keep myself focused and in the moment, and it is taking every ounce of concentration and energy I have to keep myself healthy and safe right now. These controlling, fix-it-all issues have taken me down ugly paths in the past. I refuse to let them drag me down again. I literally have no control over what's bothering me right now, and the issues at hand honestly have almost nothing to do with me. I'm just having a hard time remembering that I can't save the world and I can't control the behavior of others. I envy people who are able to separate from others' issues. I'm working on those boundaries right now.

Thanks for your patience with me as I sort things out and continue to work to stay in the present moment and feel and focus on my own well-being, rather than that of everyone around me. It's time for me to "let go and let God" deal with the issues of people and situations that I just can't fix. I keep having to remind myself:

"Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing. Truthful words stand the test of time, but lies are soon exposed. Deceit fills hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace!" -Proverbs 12:18-20, NLT

I promise I'm okay. I'm actually really proud of myself for dealing with these recent crises without reverting to old coping techniques. The reason I'm absent from the blogging world, Twitter and facebook right now is that I have to focus so intently on coping in healthy ways. I'll be back soon. Until we meet again... Happy healing!

What Was I Thinking?

Ha! I told you I'd be back with day nineteen soon... I'm so silly! I just realized I've got another week of having both of my boys here at home instead of sending them off to school each morning. Finding time to write is just not feasible at the moment. We're having too much fun! School starts back up on the 4th of January... I'll probably see you then.

In the mean time, if you're in a safe place on your healing journey, you may want to check out "Incest: A Family Tragedy"... It's a documentary. Lynn C. Tolson (author of "Beyond the Tears: A True Survivor's Story") donated a DVD of the film to our BOOKSHARE/MEDIASHARE program over at the We Support Mackenzie Phillips group on facebook. (Thank you, Lynn!) I believe this film is just as important as "Searching for Angela Shelton" in many ways. Both documentaries are filled with truth and both open our eyes to things we may not have seen before. "Searching for Angela Shelton" features interviews with survivors of rape, incest and domestic violence. "Incest: A Family Tragedy" features interviews not only with incest survivors and professionals, but also with the perpetrators of this horrific crime. I highly recommend it. It's very informative. It's very haunting. It's very sad. It's very real.

Moving on...

I don't normally make New Year's resolutions, but I'm making one for 2010. In 2010, I resolve to continue SPEAKING OUT and to learn about and spread the word about child abuse prevention.

We as survivors hold in our hearts and our hands the potential to change the world by being brave and continuing the fight for victims everywhere. Will you resolve to join with me and speak your truth? I can promise you from experience... someone is waiting to hear it.

No More Merry Stressed-mas

The last week or so has been very, very hectic. I went to funerals, parties, cantatas and plays. I ran errands to pick up everything from dried beans to passing party gifts to warm gloves and winter hats for the wee ones. I made sure the kids had red shirts for their school programs. I made 23 Christmas gifts for the people who work with my children when they're at school and for the staff at their doctor's office. I mailed out our Christmas cards. I had to drive into town so many times I lost count. I've officially been caught up in the whirlwind that is the pre-Christmas break rush. If you have kids in school, you probably know exactly what I'm talking about.

Holiday stress. Gotta love it.

Every year when Thanksgiving's passed and Christmas is on its way, I become unbelievably snippy, ready to pounce on the next poor person who has the misfortune of inadvertently interrupting my frenzied train of thought. You would think I'd be able to kick back and relax for Christmas, because I don't do big Christmases. Rather than buying hundreds of dollars worth of stuff we don't need, our family focuses on the celebration of the birth of Christ and the story of Nicholas of Myra (the inspiration for our modern-day Santa). Yet when Christmastime arrives, it never fails - my stress level hits the roof... then it bursts through the roof and continues its trajectory all the way to Mars. It comes back down around the time the kids head back to school in early January. Don't get me wrong, I look forward to Christmas... but something about it usually stresses me to the max! (I still say it's got to be the ridiculous amount of school craziness the holiday tends to bring.)

Although I have had my hands full, I've noticed something significant during the rush of the past week: I'm busy as a bee, but I am not stressed beyond belief! Sure, there's stress... there's always stress. But this year, I'm doin' alright. I'm handling it just fine and I've been able to actually relax (gasp!) during what little down-time I've had.

I can't help but wonder if this calm has anything to do with the fact that I have committed to being aware of myself and my surroundings and letting go of unrealistic expectations. I have a feeling that there's no way I could have maintained this level of "I can deal" had I not taken the challenge to find joy with the help of Angela Shelton and her 30-Day Healing Journey. I can't explain it. I'm barely halfway through the 30 days and already I can honestly tell a huge difference in my overall attitude. I was a generally positive person before I started this, but sometimes it felt kinda forced, like I was trying to look on the bright side but I didn't really believe it was there. Not anymore. This kind of peace doesn't just happen. I've found the bright side. I believe it comes from waking up every day and choosing to live joyfully. Let's just hope I can keep it up. Ha!

I'll be returning soon with my take on the remaining 14 days of the 30-Day Healing Journey, but today I want to say that I appreciate the well-wishes and prayers that I've received during my "hiatus" (I love that word). Thank you. I'd also like to take time to thank the 30-plus people who have decided to support me by following my blog through NetworkedBlogs on facebook and my 100 fabulous twitter followers and friends! I'm so glad to have your encouragement as I feel my way through this newly discovered purpose. You are amazing, wonderful, patient people and I thank God for each and every one of you.

Until next time... happy healing!

P.S. The laughing kid who can't stand still in the video is my son. Enjoy!

A Time To Cry

"But in my mind’s eye I can see a place
Where Your glory fills every empty space.
All the cancer is gone,
Every mouth is fed,
And there’s no one left in the orphans’ bed.
Every lonely heart finds their one true love,
And there’s no more goodbye,
And no more not enough,
And there’s no more enemy."
-Lyrics from "Heaven is the Face" by Steven Curtis Chapman


I may not be blogging for the next few days. A family friend is very ill and has been moved to our local Hospice facility. She's been battling cancer for quite some time. She will be leaving behind children and grandchildren who love her very much. One of her children is a beautiful 13-year-old girl. She's my niece's best friend. I want to be able to be there for the family if I'm needed... and I want time to process this and time to pray for everyone who will be affected by the changes that are sure to come.

My priorities are straight at this point in my life. This blog is definitely a priority, but it is not number one. When I come here to write, I want you to see that this is real. It wouldn't be right for me to come here and blog when I'm not able to focus on the day's task at hand. I don't want to waste your time (or mine) by sugar-coating things and pretending that I can muddle through something when there are more pressing matters to attend to.

I will see you soon, when my priorities allow me to focus on daily tasks once again. I'm still here, and I'm still healing. I'm still taking the journey. But for me, part of the overall healing journey is taking time to deal with things as they present themselves, rather than shoving the feelings deep down and denying the pain.

If you pray, please pray for my friend.

Thank you!

Let it Snow! Joy to the World! God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (and Women)!

I woke up to this today:


That's what I see when I open my front door. That's what I see from my couch while I'm sipping on my coffee, all bundled up with my favorite blanket and a good book. Might not look like much to you, but to me this is breathtaking!

I'm home alone this Saturday morning. My boys are visiting with family, my husband's off helping one of his friends move into a new home... I get the whole day to myself, so I'm taking a pit stop on my journey to enjoy my little Kentucky town's first official snowfall this winter.

My mother and I have decided to go out to dinner tonight. After dinner, we're going to see my cousin dance in The Nutcracker at the local theater. I am so excited about the prospects of this weekend, I can feel the positive energy flowing through my body. I feel electric, but relaxed at the same time.

There may be no real accumulation of snow on the ground, but there is an accumulation of abundant JOY in my heart. This is true beauty, and I'm going to sit here and enjoy it. I am gonna take this day in one moment at a time.

May you find joy this weekend! See you soon.

A Thanksgiving Break

Once again, ladies and gentlemen, life is happening.

My husband, the boys and I have three Thanksgiving dinners to go to this coming week and I don't want to stress myself out over the blog. My house is still a wreck and I am still very ill (I'll be going to the doctor again during this hiatus). Today and tomorrow will be spent preparing our home for overnight visitors (my nieces - hooray!), and while I may be completing some of the daily tasks over the next week or so, I will not be blogging about them until after Thanksgiving. I'm still not sure how this is going to pan out. I may return with a blog about everything I've done during the break, or I may hold off on the tasks and resume the journey after the holiday madness has ended. We'll just have to see what happens.

I'm not quitting. I'm just doing the best I can with the time I've got. I'm not neglecting myself or the journey, I'm just enjoying my favorite holiday with my loving family by my side. I think one of the best ways a woman can nurture herself is to spend time just being with her family and her friends (provided the family and friends are healthy people to be around, which in this case, they definitely are).

Yes, I realize this is meant to be a 30-day journey and I'm dragging it out like nobody's business. I also realize that I am merely a human being and a busy stay-at-home mom who has a lot on her plate... and I am about as real as they come. I always do my best to be genuine. The transparency of this whole process has brought us to this Thanksgiving break. Remember, enough is enough.

So until next time... Happy Thanksgiving and happy healing!

Enough is Enough

I've been very, very sick for the last week or so and I have decided to take a couple of days off of this little adventure. I'd much rather bring my best to the table than try to slide through the next couple of "Finding Angela Shelton" tasks halfheartedly. I wasn't going to blog at all during the break in my joy journey, but it occurred to me that this is the perfect opportunity to share with you one of the reasons that I've been able to come so far in my healing.

I know when enough is enough.

I've learned in therapy this time around that I have to do things at my own pace. I can't push myself too hard. When I do, I suffer setbacks. I get frustrated because I exhaust myself physically and mentally. Healing the wounds left by any type of trauma or abuse takes both mental fortitude and physical strength. Some days we just need to rest and be in the moment, to sit back and take a look at how far we've come. We can use our progress as a reminder that things will get better, even when we need to take some time to just breathe.

When I'm working through something really intense, I try to visit it a little every day. But on days like today, when I wake up to a swollen face and screaming sinuses, a migraine and matted hair that I just don't feel like brushing, antibiotics and an attitude due to being flat-out miserably ill... it's time to take inventory.


Have I made progress in my healing? Yup. So much progress that when I revisit the things I've noted in my journal entries and workbook pages, sometimes it amazes me that the things I'm reading came from my own pen.

Have I done the best I can and given it my all when I've had my all to give? Yup. When I've got it in me, I've got it in me and I don't give up.

Am I denying myself anything by taking a break in this process? Nope. As a matter of fact I'm gaining something... I'm gaining the benefits of taking care of myself and moving along one day at a time instead of expecting a quick-fix and getting frustrated when I feel stuck.


There is no such thing as a quick-fix when it comes to trauma work. It's a process. There's no shame in saying, "I can't do this right now" when you seriously can't handle it. Fighting through a difficult moment is one thing, but trying to force your way through something that takes time is another.

So if you'll pardon me and my double ear infection, my severe sinus infection and my migraine, we're going to snap this laptop shut and take a nap with our Puff's Plus and our Vick's salve and our heating pad.

I'll be back to the "Finding Angela Shelton" journey as soon as I'm feeling better. In the mean time, happy healing!