Friday, January 29, 2010
Handling Myself with Care
I'm just writing a quick entry today to let all of my wonderful, faithful readers know that the time has come - yet again - for me to take a little break. Some things have been happening around me that have been very difficult for me to understand, and even though I am so close to the end of this journey, I need to take a few days off to process what's happening.
I have struggled for many years with control issues. I am working very hard to keep myself focused and in the moment, and it is taking every ounce of concentration and energy I have to keep myself healthy and safe right now. These controlling, fix-it-all issues have taken me down ugly paths in the past. I refuse to let them drag me down again. I literally have no control over what's bothering me right now, and the issues at hand honestly have almost nothing to do with me. I'm just having a hard time remembering that I can't save the world and I can't control the behavior of others. I envy people who are able to separate from others' issues. I'm working on those boundaries right now.
Thanks for your patience with me as I sort things out and continue to work to stay in the present moment and feel and focus on my own well-being, rather than that of everyone around me. It's time for me to "let go and let God" deal with the issues of people and situations that I just can't fix. I keep having to remind myself:
"Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing. Truthful words stand the test of time, but lies are soon exposed. Deceit fills hearts that are plotting evil; joy fills hearts that are planning peace!" -Proverbs 12:18-20, NLT
I promise I'm okay. I'm actually really proud of myself for dealing with these recent crises without reverting to old coping techniques. The reason I'm absent from the blogging world, Twitter and facebook right now is that I have to focus so intently on coping in healthy ways. I'll be back soon. Until we meet again... Happy healing!